ADDICTION? 

  YOU’RE BIGGER AND BETTER THAN ADDICTION

        There is magnetism in addiction granted ..

               but more joy in being truly free .. 

LIFE IS PRECIOUS

I cannot guarantee you success but I hope these words inspire ..

      Most people with addictions: all addictions and there are many.. attempt to "BEAT THEIR FIX " many times. This is normal, part of the journey. I tried at least 20 times and lasted a fair while, several months or so, twice. Good luck truly on your journey. 

 

       My name is Craig ~ a recovering alcoholic: 50% of a longstanding band with a degree of kudos, 400 songs, many available online and physically and £1.56 in the bank. ALLEN & DOUGLAS are currently in hiatus. I am now pursuing solo music projects, swift completion of a debut novel, instant verse, photography, chilling with and in nature and other relaxing, creative pastimes. I enjoy all these hobbies et al but consider them vital and integral to my destiny, ambitions, sobriety, wellbeing and ..

most important of all HAPPINESS

 

 

"for me .. creativity is distraction, buzz, life and panacea" SID aka C.A.ALLEN

 

       Despite recent hospitalisations and debilitating battles with "THE BLUES" I am proud to say that I am almost back on top, author of a new destiny, narrative and still remain sober and drug-free.  (25 years)

       

       Had I not chosen and maintained my path of abstinence I would not be able to share this article which

(K. MADDOX) a great and brave support worker initiated and encouraged.

"You have a week left to live"

 

DR MITCHELL said to me holding my hand.

 

"There are problems with your blood cells"

 

 

      I knew my health was failing. Falls, accidents, head injuries, scary black-outs and hangovers and delirium-tremens that even the greatest wordsmiths would fail to articulate. 12 pints a day, secret top-shelf raids when I thought nobody was aware in the bar. And falling in love with big expensive cigars, chain-smoking and the final nail in the coffin: liqueurs as both knock-out night-caps and maverick splashes drizzled over muesli if my stomach could face any food. And let's not mention sprinkles or should I say lashings of psychedelia. I did a very good job of making my illness and difficulties a stack worse. And many of us do. Don't beat yourself up. Beat your fix. Forgive yourself. Kill stagnancy and move forward.

     I felt the blow of the sudden and looking back now serendipitous "bad news" hard. My psychiatrist hit me with tough love that day - 16/08/99 - but I knew her heart was good, compassion above judgement and I requested one more night in hospital to help with the gravity of it  all and looked her thankfully in the eyes saying I would never drink again. I never have. 

 

 

STEP 1 – REFLECT ON WHAT I HAVE SAID, MY EXPERIENCES.

MANY TIMES IF NEEDED. BEAT YOUR FIX.

STEP 2 – THINK OF SOMETHING YOU'D LIKE TO ACHIEVE OR DO INSTEAD OF LIVING WITH THE SHACKLES AND MISERY OF ADDICTION. BEAT YOUR FIX.

STEP 3 –  BEGIN YOUR JOURNEY.  GO FOR IT.  BEAT YOUR FIX.

STEP 4 – KEEP GOING.  YOU’RE A STAR. YOU'RE BEATING YOUR FIX.

 

 

MANY THANKS TO MANY, MANY PEOPLE

 

THIS REVISION:  SEPTEMBER 3rd, 2024 as a celebration of 25 yrs sobriety and gratitude to new professionals now who regardless of rank or status or job title have helped me pull out of a very very deep verifiable episode of bipolar mental illness and maintain both my life and sober life-style.

  Cynics might ask: "well  what good was your sobriety in the last few years?"

My riposte for trouble-stirring cynics and chatty-mouths is I don't have much time for them frankly,

they are usually obnoxious, egocentric and mind-bendingly shallow . .

 

PERFECTION IS MYTHOLOGY, LIFE DELIVERS CURVEBALLS, OTHERS OFTEN VICIOUSLY AUTHOR DIFFICULTIES..

IGNORE THESE PEOPLE. LET THEM LOOK AT THEM SELVES IN THE MIRROR. MAYBE THEY WILL EVOLVE. DON'T  CONCERN YOURSELF.

 OFF THE ROPES, STILL STANDING, I ONLY PRETENDED TO BE KNOCKED OUT FOR A BIT OF FUN.

NOW I AMBLE PROUDLY IGNORING  the ACHES & PAINS of AGE as best as I can & GET MY FIX:

MY INSPIRATION FROM GREAT PEOPLE & THE STARS of REAL LIFE. MILLION AND BILLIONS of THEM.

 

BUT I GUESS I WILL ALWAYS REMAIN HOOKED: FIXED on THE GREAT WRITERS, ARTISTS, SINGERS AND COMICS et al

who LEARNT THEIR TRADE OVER TIME 7 WITH MUCH PRACTICE, PAYING THEIR DUES.

INSTANT GRATIFICATION is largely CRASS. BE RESPECTFUL.  THINK THINGS THROUGH. EDUCATE YOURSELF.

 

WHATEVER A PERSON BELIEVES THEY SHOULD SURE AS HELL BELIEVE IN THEM SELF. 

ANYBODY CAN MAKE IT TO 25 YRS. ACCEPT HELP. STICK TO YOUR GOALS & INTERESTS &  IGNORE THE VOICE of MALEVOLENCE.

 

 

25 yrs sobriety ~ achieved on August 17th 2024

 

info@beelzebubabble.co.uk

 

FEEL FREE to CHECK MY OTHER STUFF OUT..   via   https://linktr.ee/BedsitMedia

 

with luck you will find the ART,  MUSIC  and my unfolding companion NOVEL to "BEAT YOUR FIX" both entertaining and enjoyable.

 

VERY BEST WISHES

 

SID

aka

C.A.ALLEN

aka

BEELZEBUBABBLE

aka

BEDSIT MEDIA

 

 

PEACE IN  &  LOVE OUT